Hospital

My first checkup was on 8th July 2006.

Of course, true to what the doctor said, I had my menses after few days of taking the pills. It lasted for 5days and it was a HUGE relief. So I figured things were now back to normal. My friends were happy and so was I. And my family has still yet to know cause mainly I do not want to worry them.

Although Mum tends to trivialise things and our emotions but she still care fundamentally. I reckon her actions/reactions is because she actually does not know how to emphathise well. And in her attempt to be positive or comforting, her remarks usually comes across as trivialising and that would be offensive. I guess, that is where I inherit her trait.. :)

My checkup was with a foreign doctor who has a heavy accent. I had no clue on what she was actually saying but merely selecting on words to form my own meaning. Anyway, I related the story and she was being a tad non-responsive though. She made me took 2 blood tests - Growth hormone as well as for thyroid. In addition, she gave me another 21days supply of oral contraceptive to induce my menstruation.

According to her, usually it would take a few rounds of oral contraceptives before the cycle stabilises and things go back to its supposedly state. She did concur with the doctor from polyclinic that weight loss may causes "menses-loss". And thyroid too. Thus the tests were to rule it all out.

I was then given 3months before the next appointment.

At this point in time, there was very briefly mentioned about Pre-Mature Ovarian Failure (then: Premature Menopause). I guess the doctor was trying to be positve and not speculate unneccessarily. But of course, the very fact that I went to the hospital for a check-up has already made me feel inadequate and paranoid enough. Now, my paranoia extended to possibility of having a Growth Hormone Disorder (if there is such a thing) and/or thyroid condition.

And throughout it all, I tried very hard to stay positive, remain positive and simply to believe and have faith that things will be okay from herein (now that I had my menses back)............